Never-ending Calendar

When the heart stops beating
And the mouth stops breathing
When the soul and body part
Forget them not, not the end but a start

Can never truly die when remembered
Lived life worthy of being honored
Carried on infinitely
By word of mouth and memory

Reveled and embraced by those that have been touched
When then most needed a friend, a companion, a crutch
Grateful still and love past the brim
Knows no limits, every look, plan, and whim

A guardian sent to generations unofficially met
Fireflies from the sun, uncapturable by any net
Sprinklers are rain falling upward as we start again
Birds chirp their laugh as we remember when

Origami Heart Syndrome

Said I’m flimsy and paper folded

So thin of a covering on a drum

Ripped through easy and scolded

But I’ve got Origami Heart Syndrome

Said I’m boring and two dimensional

Doesn't even matter if I come

Because nothing new ever becomes vocal

Oh, the Origami Heart Syndrome

Said it’s been seen and been done

Nothing special, almost scum

Laser unpowered, not even on stun

It’s the Origami Heart Syndrome

Said its all repetition and creases

Easy drunk with servings of rum

All interest just ceases

Suffering from Origami Heart Syndrome

Said to you that I do from hope

Each simple craft stability and mind shall succumb

But you can’t see out of your own little scope

Such a case of Origami Heart Syndrome

Said I’ll be filling box after box to the brim

And beyond until the feeling in my thumbs are numb

They are precious and paper cut through the grim

For this is my Origami Heart Syndrome

Confidante

I want to be the one you come to

In your time of need, want, pain, and bliss

I want to be the one you trust true

In all times whenever and whatever it is

No matter what, I’ll be here

No matter what they think and say

I’ll never turn my back, my dear

I’ll never leave and walk away

I’m here as long as you wish for me

I’m here each and every step of the way

We’ll fall once, twice, a million times to be

We’ve met and are, now I’m here to stay

As a genuine friend ought

I’m putting my heart and trust in you

Not stressing when we may have fought

Because that’s not all we’ve been through

Each walk down a separate trail

We may seem to split apart and forgotten

But don’t let these illusions blur and prevail

We lasted and shared all treasured and rotten

Decades or seconds when you want to start

I’ll be open and sitting here still

With ready arms and a steady heart

Let your reality, thoughts, and tears spill

Cry and rant until no more can come

And although I cannot do much but listen,

I’ll do what I can to keep hearing your heart’s drum

Because your smile and life makes everyday glisten

With each breath since we met

Our futures have been intertwined

My purpose has been set

Because I’m promising, signed

Hearing I’m your confidante makes my lifetime

And it sets me at ease knowing you’d be mine

Violet Hour

My thoughts so colored and vivid

Everything out and exploded

My reality highlighted

Knowing things unsaid

Acting this way, no reason why

Saying so is such a lie

Shaking those thoughts away

No time for this play by play

Feeling oh so surreal

How do we deal with this ordeal?

Falling back to fantasy dreams

Away from the extremes

Into the violet hour

No need for any superpower

Because here I’m complete

Nothing can compete

Floating up in bliss

Each moment one to miss

Up at cloud nine

Watching for the sign

Each passing day

A proud display

Held in the heart

Every part from the start

Staring at the ceiling

Just reminiscing

Some may say

To forget that day

But hold on to it

In the dark, it is lit

Bittersweet memories

Thinking of what would be

But won’t stand the pain

We’re in a new lane

Life will go on

As the past’s spawn

Into the violet hour

No need for any superpower

Because here I’m complete

Nothing can compete

A new day has come

To that I’ll succumb

Another time has arisen

Won’t stay in this prison

Breaking from this place

But leaving my trace

Before escaping free

Into lairs of fantasy

Into the violet hour

No need for any superpower

Because here I’m complete

Nothing can compete

Into the land of dreams

Following the stream

No longer struggling

Against every little thing

Unlocking the jail cell

That kept my heart well

Locked away by fear

Scared of pain and tears

Knowing that it comes

Like the beating of a drum

Sweet and sour alike

The soft and the spikes

Taking it as it comes

Adding up the sums

Feeling new and alive

A rejuvenated drive

Into the violet hour

No need for any superpower

Because here I’m complete

Nothing can compete

Standing so royal

Proud and regal

Turning it around

At last, feeling sound

Elegant and graceful

No longer so dull

Life in perspective

So much more prospective

Into the violet hour

No need for any superpower

Because here I’m complete

Nothing can compete

As Seasons Change

Oranges, browns, blues, greens

The spectrum of the year

And the pantomime of its seasons

The sounds of ocean breeze

Mix with the sweet showers of rain

The clash of thunder

Booming with the gongs and drums

The whistle of birds

Entangled with the sounds

Of wind chimes and glass bottles

The melodies of the wind and world file in

Filling the soul with passion and freedom

Cleansing past pain to dull

And rejuvenating life in inspiring ways

Stronger with each turn of the cycle

And each month past

Following and leading through the seasons

Heart’s song weaves through

Sweet smells with each note

Memories created and unfolded

Silent understanding in each

Tight embrace,

Light touch,

Quiet glance,

Loud laugh,

And fond seconds past

Watching and loving

What many either cannot or will not

Wafting in the beauty of the seasons

Wishing naught despite what

Wandered through the past

Wallowing in regret won’t make amends

Work forward and find yourself again

The rain showers pounding sweetly

Upon water, pavement, and brick

Singing stormy stories

As thunderclouds hover

Dispensing thunder’s tremors and tales

Lighting lashes the length of the sky

Bolting brightly, breaking by the grey

As people hide under their covers

I sing with the song and run outside

Arms thrown wide, head thrown back

Laughing as I spin

Loving as I live

Circles upon circles

Twirling and dancing

Insane and perfect in every way

Ripples trail along the surface

Cold air nips at my nose and fingertips

Water droplets all around

Atmosphere clean and anew

Wind whips my hair

Behind my head then

Across my face

Hands move to push it back

To little avail

Let it be and let all be

Listen instead and focus instead

On the secrets of the breeze

Listen to the sounds of the seasons

Shifting each second

Taste the colors as they melt to one

Creating new days overlapping old

Feel the difference of the atmosphere

Morphing to something better

Observe the storms and winds ahead

Challenging your every step

And listen to that song of your soul

Moving to the changes of the seasons

Explosive Renewal

Situation expected from the very start

Knew it was coming after your heart

Certain to appear, but when?

Guard dropped momentarily, and then

Blunt and honest; why drop clues?

Upfront and direct; why not if it’s true?

Striking at the heart bandaged from rips before

With sharp stabs that dull and then hit the core

Water collects at the rims

But with a hard swallow, dims

Knowing that it hurts others to see you cry

That they hate the sight of your tears, so you try

Achieving what has not ever before

You cry no more; what is wrong?

Nothing evokes those watery streaks

No matter what emotion from inside sneaks

Feeling everything and nothing simultaneously

All and none at the same time explosively

Confusion sets in, but naught else would

Lingering on not as it should

Emotions built up a firewall

To pick and choose from the ball

Of eternity at once, cluttered

Pounded together, yet still fluttered

Negativity held back

Trying to fill that spot you now lack

Channeling that pent-up anger to production

Channeling that happy relief to laughter

Sadness escapes past the guards for a moment

Brings a wrenching pain’s descent

But no tears fall, ability temporarily lost

Starting that day, emotions combined and crossed

Feeling so fake and surreal

From such control; what was the earlier appeal?

Drawing on emotions; simple crops to pick

Shutting away, pushing aside any painful kicks

Mentioned at all, throbbing pain

Seen at all, continues to strain

But knowing other’s happiness, lightened

A smile forms, rejuvenated and enlightened

An entire lifetime crammed in,

Into the short test of time therein

Closer than most others would ever, could ever, be

Reborn and reincarnated into a new you for the world to see

Test and Tears

If loving is such a crime

I will gladly do the time

Pass this test and the tears

Taking it on with no fears

Caught in the lie

Fearing plenty though I try

Not to succumb to giving up

Not merely some lovesick pup

Thrashed and beaten through this course

Roughly bashed in river’s force

The waters of love, patchy and cruel

But leading to beauty and life fuel

Nights in bed, mind conflicted

Mornings in hiding, feeling constricted

The waters of love and waters of pain

Flow together from the eyes they stain

But this test will be beaten

As I knew all along, victory then

All worthwhile through wait and ache

As it was for your and my sake

Times gone by so swiftly sly

Such a history in short span by

Knowing one like the other

That differences can’t smother

All so clear and linked

Each thought seems synced

Yet couldn’t be further apart

In everything other than thy heart

Such unusual beginnings start

Before even aware of such a part

Hurt for that of one elsewhere

In memory linked a pair

First and foremost such care

To the extents of despair

Still trudging persistently

Dreams crushed reviving lively

Heartstrung (song in progress)

Although you’re no longer by my side

Although we each take our separate ways

Although both take our different rides

Although we’re split in where we shall stay

The two of us, inseparable

The both of us, connected, one soul

The pair of us, twins, identical

The differences, forever condole

Pulling on heartstrings as we depart

Bawling and crying our waterfalls

Held together strong in our hearts

Through our weakened states, standing tall

And we are heartstrung

Bound tight in this song

And we are heartstrung

Flowing with the tears

Each and every step of every day

Turning to my side to discover

Not walking alongside there to convey

That the sight brought upon you shivers

No laughter, no tears, no sharing thoughts

Farewell the midnight phone calls and texts

No guilty ice cream after we fought

Goodbye to giggling over what’s next

Pulling on heartstrings as we depart

Bawling and crying our waterfalls

Held together strong in our hearts

Through our weakened states, standing tall

And we are heartstrung

Bound tight in this song

And we are heartstrung

Flowing with the tears

Days drag on, only seconds gone by

Remembering all the times we’ve shared

The prank calls, oh how clever, how sly

The playground games, running in our pairs

And we are heartstrung

Bound tight in this song

And we are heartstrung

Flowing with the tears

And in our newer lives apart

Know I am a phone call away

And closer, residing in your heart

Any distance can’t cause our bond’s fray

Stronger than any ocean’s power

Nothing brings about our disarray

Picking up on our school days’ chatter

As if it were simply yesterday

And we are heartstrung

Bound tight in this song

And we are heartstrung

Flowing with the tears

And we are heartstrung

Tighter than this song

And we are heartstrung

Always both along