Confidante

I want to be the one you come to

In your time of need, want, pain, and bliss

I want to be the one you trust true

In all times whenever and whatever it is

No matter what, I’ll be here

No matter what they think and say

I’ll never turn my back, my dear

I’ll never leave and walk away

I’m here as long as you wish for me

I’m here each and every step of the way

We’ll fall once, twice, a million times to be

We’ve met and are, now I’m here to stay

As a genuine friend ought

I’m putting my heart and trust in you

Not stressing when we may have fought

Because that’s not all we’ve been through

Each walk down a separate trail

We may seem to split apart and forgotten

But don’t let these illusions blur and prevail

We lasted and shared all treasured and rotten

Decades or seconds when you want to start

I’ll be open and sitting here still

With ready arms and a steady heart

Let your reality, thoughts, and tears spill

Cry and rant until no more can come

And although I cannot do much but listen,

I’ll do what I can to keep hearing your heart’s drum

Because your smile and life makes everyday glisten

With each breath since we met

Our futures have been intertwined

My purpose has been set

Because I’m promising, signed

Hearing I’m your confidante makes my lifetime

And it sets me at ease knowing you’d be mine

Now Open

Just want to cry it all out

I won’t talk about it

Just want to figure it all out

I won’t simply be here and sit

Why can’t answers come so easily?

When do we finally get to know?

Why must we catalyze this secrecy?

Where does everything fall into flow?

Spent my hours cruel and callous

No sensitivity, no mercy

Snarl and growl, so malicious

No community, no sympathy

Can someone break me out of this agony?

Will emotions wash me clean?

Can I toss the indifference and apathy?

Will trust rebuild the emptiness between?

Now the aura erupts its emanating glory

Color, warmth, and chills waft

Transparency anew tainted from discovery

Taking these for granted was quite daft

But no more putting on a show

Optimism is a blessing and a restriction

Stockpiling bliss before dealing a final blow

But now open and real feeling breach limitation

Test and Tears

If loving is such a crime

I will gladly do the time

Pass this test and the tears

Taking it on with no fears

Caught in the lie

Fearing plenty though I try

Not to succumb to giving up

Not merely some lovesick pup

Thrashed and beaten through this course

Roughly bashed in river’s force

The waters of love, patchy and cruel

But leading to beauty and life fuel

Nights in bed, mind conflicted

Mornings in hiding, feeling constricted

The waters of love and waters of pain

Flow together from the eyes they stain

But this test will be beaten

As I knew all along, victory then

All worthwhile through wait and ache

As it was for your and my sake

Times gone by so swiftly sly

Such a history in short span by

Knowing one like the other

That differences can’t smother

All so clear and linked

Each thought seems synced

Yet couldn’t be further apart

In everything other than thy heart

Such unusual beginnings start

Before even aware of such a part

Hurt for that of one elsewhere

In memory linked a pair

First and foremost such care

To the extents of despair

Still trudging persistently

Dreams crushed reviving lively