Sulfurous Soul

Smash of the platter

Screeching to a falter

Slamming against ground
Shouts all around

Scorn and upset

Sears the mind’s debt
Squalls erupt and fire
Screaming a tantrum dire

Scared of what is and has been
Sworn to thyself no more chagrin

Stopping upon realization

Shy of extreme over dramatization

Slowing the fury and rashness

Staring at it you confess

Sure apprehension

Sharp recognition

Stained reputation

Self aggravation

Soiled blanketed reality

Stance wavering yet

Shaken will and might

Stripped of bite and fight

Swiftly placed face to arm

Swallowing gasps of alarm

Smoldering droplets fall

Sliding down as you recall

Sneak a look behind your back

Streaming hot tears you once would lack

Stability smashed and crashed

Steady upheaval and now abashed

Similar to heated tears you want to stanch

Small dew drops cry upon a branch

Sun rising and drying the trees

Smile a bit and do as you please

Still you halt and wonder again

Sweetness comes though it wanes

Pitied, So Sorry

The shadows call

The devil’s choir summons

The whispers in his head

The constant pitying looks from the corners of their eyes

Sorry after sorry, apologies splayed

As if they mend broken hearts

As if they calm troubled souls

As if they tame the raging emotions

People think they can slip past on two-faced facades

Thinking he won’t see past their false comforting hold

Believing he won’t notice their imagined situations

Assuming he won’t realize their counterfeit sympathy

Wanting to please everyone is not an easy feat

Repenting seems much simpler

But it reaches a point

Where it all boils over icy

Where it all freezes over scorching

Where the dry rain no longer quenches hunger

Where common sense is questioned

Where societal norms are revealed under new light

Where common sense no longer seems right

Where something, just a little thing, snaps

Where insides jumble into a tangled mess

Where no change shows apparent outwardly

Preying off of self deceit and continuation of all he knows

Tilting from slight smiles to tortured silence

Laughing away people’s doubts

Internally searching and seeking and coming short of an answer

Time dulls the blade’s edge

Time weakens the claw’s pull

Time stifles the banshee’s wails

Time muddies memories unforgotten

But broken blades still cut

Soft clawing leaves marks

Whispered wails shrill eerily

And all the dirt and mud piled thick

Would not erase the lines of graffiti’d concrete underneath

The sane world he lived litters with altered comprehension

Explosive Renewal

Situation expected from the very start

Knew it was coming after your heart

Certain to appear, but when?

Guard dropped momentarily, and then

Blunt and honest; why drop clues?

Upfront and direct; why not if it’s true?

Striking at the heart bandaged from rips before

With sharp stabs that dull and then hit the core

Water collects at the rims

But with a hard swallow, dims

Knowing that it hurts others to see you cry

That they hate the sight of your tears, so you try

Achieving what has not ever before

You cry no more; what is wrong?

Nothing evokes those watery streaks

No matter what emotion from inside sneaks

Feeling everything and nothing simultaneously

All and none at the same time explosively

Confusion sets in, but naught else would

Lingering on not as it should

Emotions built up a firewall

To pick and choose from the ball

Of eternity at once, cluttered

Pounded together, yet still fluttered

Negativity held back

Trying to fill that spot you now lack

Channeling that pent-up anger to production

Channeling that happy relief to laughter

Sadness escapes past the guards for a moment

Brings a wrenching pain’s descent

But no tears fall, ability temporarily lost

Starting that day, emotions combined and crossed

Feeling so fake and surreal

From such control; what was the earlier appeal?

Drawing on emotions; simple crops to pick

Shutting away, pushing aside any painful kicks

Mentioned at all, throbbing pain

Seen at all, continues to strain

But knowing other’s happiness, lightened

A smile forms, rejuvenated and enlightened

An entire lifetime crammed in,

Into the short test of time therein

Closer than most others would ever, could ever, be

Reborn and reincarnated into a new you for the world to see

Anger and Fury

Anger and fury,

Stubborn and unseeing

Mind closed, eyes closed

Towards all thoughts

Not their own

Bigoted and self-centered,

Blinded unknowingly,

Restricted by ignorance

And refusal,

Refusal to end ignorance

Paranoid and untrusting,

Never believing

Enclosed within

One’s own mind and body

The downfall of man

Bickering and madness

Unable to harmonize

Along with others

Fear the different

Scared to be unique

Afraid to stand out

Hiding from shun

Never wishing

To be in the place

Of the pariah

The outcast

The one who stays true

To themselves,

Their thoughts,

Their beliefs,

Their actions

Thinking they are the ones

Hurt and confused,

Wrong and shunned away

Reality is,

They stand tall,

Believe and aspire,

Living life to its fullest,

Positively and content,

Open to all,

And to self

Anger and fury,

Irrational and abrupt,

Sudden changes,

Multiple sides in one

Personalities alter,

Characteristics shift,

Traits transform

And one who we knew,

A complete stranger

Uncertain and unsure

Of identity within,

Metamorphosed outer appearance,

No longer the same

The bickering begins

And arguing pursues

Anxious arguments,

Debates, disagreements,

Whatever the name

Tears down friends and family,

Strangers you become,

And man himself destroyed