Confidante

I want to be the one you come to

In your time of need, want, pain, and bliss

I want to be the one you trust true

In all times whenever and whatever it is

No matter what, I’ll be here

No matter what they think and say

I’ll never turn my back, my dear

I’ll never leave and walk away

I’m here as long as you wish for me

I’m here each and every step of the way

We’ll fall once, twice, a million times to be

We’ve met and are, now I’m here to stay

As a genuine friend ought

I’m putting my heart and trust in you

Not stressing when we may have fought

Because that’s not all we’ve been through

Each walk down a separate trail

We may seem to split apart and forgotten

But don’t let these illusions blur and prevail

We lasted and shared all treasured and rotten

Decades or seconds when you want to start

I’ll be open and sitting here still

With ready arms and a steady heart

Let your reality, thoughts, and tears spill

Cry and rant until no more can come

And although I cannot do much but listen,

I’ll do what I can to keep hearing your heart’s drum

Because your smile and life makes everyday glisten

With each breath since we met

Our futures have been intertwined

My purpose has been set

Because I’m promising, signed

Hearing I’m your confidante makes my lifetime

And it sets me at ease knowing you’d be mine

Now Open

Just want to cry it all out

I won’t talk about it

Just want to figure it all out

I won’t simply be here and sit

Why can’t answers come so easily?

When do we finally get to know?

Why must we catalyze this secrecy?

Where does everything fall into flow?

Spent my hours cruel and callous

No sensitivity, no mercy

Snarl and growl, so malicious

No community, no sympathy

Can someone break me out of this agony?

Will emotions wash me clean?

Can I toss the indifference and apathy?

Will trust rebuild the emptiness between?

Now the aura erupts its emanating glory

Color, warmth, and chills waft

Transparency anew tainted from discovery

Taking these for granted was quite daft

But no more putting on a show

Optimism is a blessing and a restriction

Stockpiling bliss before dealing a final blow

But now open and real feeling breach limitation

Halfway to the Start

Always believing the lowest

Trusting the insecurities

Following the negativity

That eats away at the brain

And the mind blanks out to all

Not the paranoia and fear

Of selfish claims and ulterior motives

That nothing is true

And there is naught to be certain

About and be caught by

Once falling face and back down

Blind and vulnerable

Guards and wall won’t ever drop down

And we were at the start

But now we get pushed further

Back to the negatives

Past point zero

Terrified and needing a comfort

Holding on to unsure distrust

Gone in time to a place with no

Trust, hope, or belief in

The good of human kind’s

Heart and pureness

Through the tainted lives

We live day by week

By month and year

Forever and eternity apart

Nothing to do except trust

Nothing to change but everything

Nothing to believe in but reality

But trusting nothing

And changing nothing

And believing only worries

We become infinitely further

From the beginning

The start is miles and centuries lost

And we’re halfway to the start

But we waver yet again

Facing the fresher world

Of dry yellow grass

And shaded eyes

And whispered exchanges

And solitude of self benefit

So the distance close splits

Yet again to another half

And we’re yet another halfway

From the start

Such disbelief and anger

Never subsiding

And wallowing in filled silence

Tense and breakable

Snapping in small pressure

Unable to be anything but incomplete

Relationships slashed

Homes burnt in fury

And frozen in ice

The match of lava and hail

Meeting halfway,

Halfway to the start