Halfway to the Start

Always believing the lowest

Trusting the insecurities

Following the negativity

That eats away at the brain

And the mind blanks out to all

Not the paranoia and fear

Of selfish claims and ulterior motives

That nothing is true

And there is naught to be certain

About and be caught by

Once falling face and back down

Blind and vulnerable

Guards and wall won’t ever drop down

And we were at the start

But now we get pushed further

Back to the negatives

Past point zero

Terrified and needing a comfort

Holding on to unsure distrust

Gone in time to a place with no

Trust, hope, or belief in

The good of human kind’s

Heart and pureness

Through the tainted lives

We live day by week

By month and year

Forever and eternity apart

Nothing to do except trust

Nothing to change but everything

Nothing to believe in but reality

But trusting nothing

And changing nothing

And believing only worries

We become infinitely further

From the beginning

The start is miles and centuries lost

And we’re halfway to the start

But we waver yet again

Facing the fresher world

Of dry yellow grass

And shaded eyes

And whispered exchanges

And solitude of self benefit

So the distance close splits

Yet again to another half

And we’re yet another halfway

From the start

Such disbelief and anger

Never subsiding

And wallowing in filled silence

Tense and breakable

Snapping in small pressure

Unable to be anything but incomplete

Relationships slashed

Homes burnt in fury

And frozen in ice

The match of lava and hail

Meeting halfway,

Halfway to the start